weight watchers. on tuesday it finally begins officially in the bay again. i am very excited about this. tucker will be attending with me. poor kid. need to get in while registration is free. this brings up another good point. the pound project. yeah, i've been so swamped lately at work and at home that i haven't thought twice (okay, maybe twice) about it. so, that link has dropped off the face of the planet because i don't have the time to dedicate to a blog about losing weight. i'm just going to do it. with the help of ol' ww. it really works and i'm bound and determined to be lookin' hot this summer. okay, well, at least pre-tucker weight hot. no effing excuses. it is go time.
speaking of go time, it is nearly midnight and my kid is in his crib bawling his eyes out. son of a.
matt has a bowling tourney tomorrow at 9 in the damn morning. he worked today. it seriously feels like we never see each other. it really is starting to suck. i got the mommy thing going on, but then matt thinks i should 'step up' and do everything else. what. ever. i just hope i can get like ten minutes of alone time tomorrow. please lord, give me just ten friggen minutes alone.
things that happen in my workplace...well, you just can't make the drama up. seriously! i told someone last week that we could write a book, change the names to protect the stupid, and make millions. talk about 'days of our lives'.
so, melissa and i went to lunch at the hut. we both had to get out of the office and i needed some feel good food so pizza was it. then, i had to stop at super one to get some things for tucker. we walked in, went to the baby section and before i bought the crap i called home to see if anyone would be in duluth so they could pick it up instead. my dad said keri was there now and that i could call her to see if she could pick the stuff up for me. so, i called keri and she said no problem and would be hitting up super walmart. super walmart is the place i tell you. there is one in superior and one in cloquet so i rarely get to them...the only ones i stop at are bemidji and hibbing. funny. anyways, so that was done. melissa and i had went into super one just to make some phone calls. nice.
on our way home (she's my carpool pal) we discussed our day...the good, the bad, and the very ugly. i joked that someday i would get trashed and go into work and tell everyone what the real deal is. i of course, acted this out...slurred speech and all. it was a good way to end our day...with a laugh.
with child = me (or my husband)
without child = all my childless girlfriends (or guy friends)
i have been reading a lot about how life is different once you have kids. yeah, it is. everything changes. one of the hits for the mommy's are the relationships they have with their girlfriends. for the mommy's (as in my case) i mourn the days when i had no responsibility. i could go out with my girlfriends whenever i wanted, talk on the phone with them with no interruptions, they could come over at any time and not have to worry about me being pre-occupied with my little guy...and the list goes on. for the non-mommy's, maybe they mourn the same thing i do. or maybe they wish they had the same thing (a kiddo). if this is the case, they are nuts and need professional help (just kidding). i found this article that relates to what i'm talking about.
life changes, even for men. men? really? yeah. however, it is my strong belief that it changes more for women than for men. see, men mourn that they have responsibility, but on the flip side, they seem to more easily justify their reasons for having to do things other than daddy duty. am i right moms? example) matt bowls on wednesday nights. no big deal. i feed tucker, play with him, get him ready for bedtime, etc. no worries and tucker is not screaming for his father as he walks out the door. no drama. it is all good. however, when i bowl on thursday nights, matt is usually tired from work (who isn't though?). he usually takes a nap before i leave (huge mistake as he is godzilla when he gets up). then, he is all cranky and i have to leave him with the little runt who is screaming for his mother to come back to him. he frustrated and therefore can sometimes vent that frustration towards me. hey dude, i don't need what you're selling. yeah, it's frustrating, but mom's deal with frustration all the time. but this is life...as a parent. this is not all the time, but many of you mom's know what i'm talking about!
don't get me wrong, we have a great group of friends, but no matter how you look at it, things have changed. in time, they will all catch up and have little gomper's of their own, but for now...it is what it is. we have to make the time (and find the sitter) in order to have fun like we did before. that usually is not a big deal, but priorities change.
well, that was eh, heavy.
i have been looking into daycare options for tucker. currently he spends his days with family. i think i've went through the day to day bookings for him, but he will be turning one and i realize that the time is here to look into other options. i have called one lady that i know to look into 'private' daycare. i am waiting for her return phone call. i also called my cousin who works for faith lutheran daycare here in town. she gave me the lowdown. until tucker is 16 months, it is 3.25/hour. you provide the diapers/wipes/lunch. they provide snacks and all the fun. i am seriously considering this option for a couple days a week. you give them a schedule for the month and get a discount if you pay for the whole month in advance. they have openings and have a total of about 12 kids each day. i think this would be good for him. anything would be good for him though. i'll have to keep you updated on what happens. my mom is still going to do her day each week when she is not working so that will be nice and my gram might do it for a while longer as well. if i did bring him to faith, i would probably start in april.
tonight i bowled. whoohoo. it went fast because we bowled against ourselves. nice. only took an hour for three games. i hate coming home from the bowling alley because i smell like a cigarette. ick. they should have like a decontamination unit you walk through on the way out. make you smell like spring or something.
ah, spring...i'm getting the fever and we are finally going to be getting some snow tomorrow through the weekend (we'll see mr. weather man). even if it snows, i am still going to keep the spring fever going and get some things in my house taken care of. matt has a bowling tourney this weekend and whatnot, so hopefully tucker does not have 'grasp onto mommy and don't let go' syndrome.
and one final note. tomorrow is friday. praise the lord.
it is wednesday, but it was my monday. work just pissed me off today. the good part of the day was that i got to see my old boss. i had some questions for him and he stopped in to see me. it was nice and he looks so much less stressed. i guess when you are planning to talk to the 'retirement guy' next week, that would make you look much less stressed.
tucker was with weezie today. my grandma just loves that kid to death. and i heard he got a special phone call from grandma cheryl! that must have made his day. we give her picture a kiss everyday (okay, so he plays with the frame...but it still counts).
gotta run. cry baby. miss you mom!
tomorrow i am back to work. monday was the 'ol presidents day and today i flexed from saturday. i had a crazy, busy, stinky, cranky, got things done type of day today.
woke up at the butt crack of dawn again. tucker could sleep until the cows come home during the week, when i have to wake him up to get him ready to leave, but on the weekends, he's up before the rooster. guess he's just excited to spend the day with his awesome parents (hahaha). got a lot accomplished today including my taxes (huge score this year), corey's taxes, moving some furniture around (aka babyproofing which did not work because now he actually started to climb up on a trunk of mine that he has just discovered), laundry, cleaning the bathroom...yes, even the toilet, dishes, and dinner. yeah, dinner is an accomplishment because i actually made it without matt's help (i am no martha people). anyways, things went well. tucker had a massive explosion in his diaper this evening and of course he did. not. want. to. sit. still. why is it they always are cranky little squirmy things when they have crap everywhere? yeah. it was a real treat. he was pretty good today though. he is obsessed with making his little evil smile with the elvis lip all the time. cracks you up though. i'll try to get a good picture of him doing it to post.
well, trying to keep up on daily events on this thing for my mom. we miss you already! now, off to bed so i can get up and drag my ass into the office for some real fun. whoopie!
if you look at the picture below, you will be able to tell how my day went yesterday. egh. i was doing taxes on the ol' laptop and had tucker in my lap playing with a toy. well, he must have suddenly got bored with that (can't imagine) and plucked my shift key off my keyboard. it is fixable, but unless you have some small tools to get this one piece latched on, it is nearly impossible. i think i might see if this guy i work with can help me. it is really bothering me.
and this was the culprit.
there are so many things going on right now...egh. but as promised, here is my review of the event along with my review of some other things.
the event was attended by about 70 people. the speaker was a local mom who lost her son in a horrible accident a few years ago. the kids that were involved in the accident were underage and they were drinking. two of the three in the vehicle were killed. it was tragic. i could never imagine. but, many in this small town have their own opinion of the family and i think that played into the attendance at the event. she has been told to 'move on' or 'get over it' by many. who are we to judge i guess right? i'm not going really in depth here, but i was disappointed with the turnout, but i understand. underage drinking is also a subject that many choose to ignore as a problem. yeah, i did it too...i'm not preaching here or anything, but it still is not right. so, i guess i look at it as a success. there were people who cared and showed up. there's my review.
now let's review what tucker is doing. last night megan and natalie watched him. he has like this evil little smile now. it will be the smile that says 'i just did something bad and you don't know about it yet...hahaha'. it is the cutest thing. no teeth. he's almost 11 months so i'm hoping that happens soon. he snores like his father. he laughs when everyone else laughs...so funny. he loves flowers. all of the ones i got over the last week or so he has wanted to pick, touch, smell. looks like he is going to have a blast in my gardens this summer. egh. he'll have to have his 'own' flowers to pick! he is getting a little more brave when standing up and moving from thing to thing. he will stand on his own but gets a little nervous when he realizes he is solo. he is obsessed with books to the point i have to cover up the book basket with a blanket when it is bedtime. otherwise he would never go to sleep. he waves bye bye to everything (flowers, lights, people). he plays patty cake (i'm sure i've mentioned some of these...oh well). and now i've begun to rearrange the house so he has less items to get his little hands on. of course there are more things, but when i sit down here, my mind goes blank.
my review. i ordered a few books off my wish list. i have opened the box, looked at them, and they are now sitting back in the box. my goal is to start reading one of the three by tuesday. i am off until wednesday so i'm hoping to get a lot accomplished. monday is a holiday and tuesday i flexed from saturday. nice. i'm going to do our taxes on monday. looking forward to that. we are finally starting to get a good little nest egg saved up for our house projects/vacation/wish lists. exciting. over the next six weeks i'll be posting and putting new pictures up quite a bit for my mom. she's leaving to work in idaho so this will be her 'link' to us while she's gone. oh, and i'm also looking into possible daycare options for tucker after he is one. egh, that is going to be hard. i've been spoiled so far, but i am very, very grateful to my family for their help.
well, i'm sure there will be more later. a sunday snack for you all.
there is so much going on this weekend!
last night natalie stayed over night...watched the ant bully (not really that great of a movie) and now we are up and at 'em today. just fed little man his breakfast. since he got up at the butt crack of dawn, he is already getting sleepie. this afternoon i have to get ready for our community event. i've heard mixed feedback about the speaker, but i strongly feel that it is something that has to be done in this town. i'll give a review on that later tonight.
it is the men's hockey tourney this weekend too. although matt isn't playing, my brother probably is and it'd be nice to watch a game or two. then we're going out with friends tonight while tucker goes to my dad and keri's.
and right now, tucker is throwing a fit so i gotta run. oh, mommyhood. did i mention matt is at work? yeah, just lovin' that! ergh!