this week has been insane.
had a night out celebrating house's birthday on friday. saturday was spent in finland with family. sunday was spent cooking and cleaning to prepare for tucker's birthday party with our families (no idea why people clean before parties ... it takes 30 seconds for things to be destroyed when the kids are in the house). monday was spent trying to organize things in my bedroom as we're about to start 'operation make room'. so frustrated with the amount of STUFF in this house that i'm about ready to go loco. also worked on some photography stuff for clients. by today, i was spent. then, we had tucker's yearly checkup @ 330PM and my 30 week checkup @ 415PM. yeah, i really know how to schedule things, don't i?
i only had one issue i was concerned about at tucker's checkup. just my luck, i get a nurse practitioner to help while one doctor picks up the load for the doctor that was supposed to see tucker (as he was called into a c-section ... figures). so it was like tag team doctors for our appointment ... and since i had one issue i wanted to discuss with them ... it ended up going into my appointment by a few minutes. luckily, my mom was with us and she stayed with tucker and finished his appointment (just a finger poke and then he was done) so i could get to mine (late). being late and having things clash like this stresses me out. i was feeling guilty i left tucker's appointment five minutes before he was done. on top of it, the issue i wanted to talk to them about stresses me out even more ... so yeah, today was high stress. i don't even really want to talk about it here on the blog because i'm sick of talking about it. and getting advice. and thinking i suck at being a parent. and knowing things shouldn't be this hard. ergh.
so, my appointment was quick and easy. everything was great. heartbeat was 138. i had the nurse practitioner too. she's great. i am nervous about the next few weeks. all the aches and pains ... and the HARD BELLY i get each night freak me out a bit. i know some of it is normal. i talked to her about all of it. i just know that the next month or so we have a lot to get done ... and i know it will naturally stress me out. i just need to seriously TAKE A CHILL PILL.
now, i need to go put my feet up, drink some water ... and go to bed.
thanks for reading my spew of a post. better things to come.