the second week of june ... everything changed at our house.
matt's mom and grandma were at our house visiting. i was changing the baby. tucker had a streaker and since i was busy, matt took him into the bathroom. after some talking, screaming and crying ... tucker went poop on the toilet. from that day forward, he never went poop in a pullup again. sure, he's had a streaker here or there, but the dumps have went in the toilet.
i think there was one time when i was going to write about our success of tucker pooping in the toilet, but as i was doing so, matt spent nearly an hour in the bathroom with him. i'm not sure that was a success, but it was better than changing a pullup.
tucker is weird in the bathroom. he wants matt/us to be in there. he doesn't want to be alone to get the job done. however, i see now why it takes a guy SO much longer to take a dump than girls. there are times he's in there, getting the job done and has to take a 'fiver' or even a 'tener'. he counts to five or ten and then is back at it again. seriously. this whole nightmareish situation has gotten better over time. in the beginning it was taking tucker nearly an hour to go. now, he goes in and usually doesn't dink around too long before he goes. he still likes to protest going to the bathroom (this happens when we tell him he needs to go pee as well). the kid always thinks he is going to miss out on something and hates to stop what he is doing to go. it is insane.
during this whole time, we've been giving him miralax almost daily. we had asked the doctor if that was okay to do when we were in the hospital after levi was born. our pediatritian actually asked about how tucker's pooping was doing when she came to see levi. i wasn't sure if i could give him miralax more than what the bottle said, but screw the directions! she said it was just fine to do. it really has made a difference. we usually have to make him go, so he's not holding it for you know ... days ... and getting all bound up. it has been a huge time suck for us, but i basically feel we have to do what we are doing.
he has officially became sick of wearing a pullup at night too. maybe we're slacking in this area, but dude, we were not regulating what he was drinking before bedtime, which is like important if you want your kid to stay dry all night. now, we are. he wanted to wear underwear one night (two weeks ago) and we haven't looked back. he has been dry in the mornings about half of the time. we really have to watch what he has to drink and give him enough time before going potty before bed. matt has started waking him up at 4am to go pee too. he had been checking him before he left for work and tucker would be dry. by the time i was up two hours later, he was wet. so, we knew we had to start getting him up to go before he had an accident. it is working.
someday, tucker will read this and a) be pissed i shared it all with whoever wanted to read and b) thank his mom and dad for all of their DAMN HARD WORK in making sure he could properly take a dump.
and in other news, levi is pooping and peeing in his SIZE 3 diapers all the time. :)
my first day back at work went much better than i had expected. maybe it is because i wasn't expecting much. i just tried to relax. i also remembered what a freak show i was with tucker (even though he had it much better than levi being with family for an entire year, then having in-home care with ashley for two years). i know that tucker has survived this long so things can't be all that bad right?
it was actually ... dare i say ... 'easy' to go back to work today? i figured i would cry pulling out of the driveway at daycare. i didn't. i figured i would cry when i called to check on the boys (even though i called at the worst time and levi had a good cry on). i didn't. sure, i have another little dude to get ready in the morning and load up and drop off ... but it's not too bad. i was able to get up, get ready and get going right on time. amazing. i am sure there will be days when it is a total nightmare to get out the door ... but we'll just roll with it. i better remember i said that. :)
i was comforted when daycare called in the afternoon to tell me how well things were going. tucker even made me some artwork that is now hanging on my fridge. both levi and tucker were all smiles when i got home. that made it all come together.
i have a little bit of ME back and i really MISSED it.
i miss my boys every minute, but it really is easier the second time around. i know that even though it sucks to have them with someone else while you work ... that's life. soon, they'll be in school just as much (or more actually) then they are in daycare. i don't see many parents complaining that their kids are in school all day long!
i just have to remember, the time we spend apart makes the time we are together all the more special.
before i had levi, i imagined my maternity leave being full of trips to the playground, fun projects with tucker while levi napped peacefully in his crib, dinner already cooking when matt got home from work, and a lot of time for me to accomplish some of my own projects.
then i had levi. and all that i imagined basically just stayed right there ... in my imagination.
to say i have done less than i thought i would is an understatement. yesterday, i found myself cleaning like a madwoman because well, i wanted it done before i went back to work. there are so many things sitting here staring me in the face because i didn't get them done.
i didn't get things done because i was feeding a little pudge a bottle which seems like every five minutes. then, going through boxes of diapers + wipes. oh, and snuggling. that has been my favorite part of being home. it's an added bonus when i got to snuggle in the rocking chair with both boys. those are the times when i would sit there and not even answer the phone when it rang because nothing else in the world was more important than me sitting with them both right then. i spent a lot of time snuggling my boys. it makes me sad that we're not going to have a tuesday afternoon nap together anymore. all those moments will be pushed into the weekends that already seem to busy. the evenings will be a blur as well. before i know it, levi will be FOUR. like tucker. and tucker, well, he'll be EIGHT. dude, time will go by that fast.
i am ready to go back to work, but on the same exact hand ... i'm not. i'm going to miss this time with my boys. i am going to miss being the one trying to make a bottle while trying to fix tucker's toy, feed him lunch, or beat super mario brothers with him on the wii. i know all this stuff happens in the evening and on weekends too ... but a big chunk of time is going to be spent with someone other than me. and that makes me sad.
not only am i ready to go back to work, but i need to. my fuse has become short. very short. i am not only finding myself yelling at tucker, but now i'm arguing with matt about stupid things. i hate this. i need an outlet. i need to be out of this house.
i'm basically just rambling at this point.
matt took tucker fishing and i'm working on a few things while levi chills out in his bouncy seat.
i'm sad. i'm excited. i'm nervous i won't be able to juggle it all once the clock starts tomorrow. i know it's possible, it just is a little scary right now. for 12 weeks, we've had nowhere to be really. it's been easy. it's been fun. it's been relaxing. now, it's about to get real.
hard to believe another month has passed since levi arrived on the scene. well, actually more than a month since i'm late posting this, but whatever. the second month of his life has been a busy one!
he just fits so perfectly into our family. tucker loves him so much. i think the best thing i heard out of his mouth during the month was ... 'mom! look! he just had his second first smile at me!'. melt my heart.
levi had his first long car ride. we went to bemidji camping (same place we took tucker for his first long car ride/camping trip). it normally would take us about 3.5 hours to get there, but since levi insisted on stopping to chug his bottle ... it took closer to 5 hours. he doesn't like waiting to eat (as you might be able to tell in some of the pictures).
he loved camping. he was a good sleeper each night. plenty of family members were around to love him up. i was also successful at keeping him bug bite free! he spent time in his little pod as well. that thing rocks.
i had a little photo shoot with the boys towards the end of the month. it was ... interesting. i think this is my favorite shot of the two of them together. i loved it so much i got a huge 20x30 float wrap of it. awesome.
he LOVES ceiling fans. he can stare at them forever and they make him SMILE from ear to ear. it kills me.
he likes his bouncy seat, but is not a big fan of the swing yet.
he does enjoy his new stroller!
tummy time is for the birds. he gets so ticked off because i'm sure he just wants to STAND UP and go get himself a slice of pizza already.
he watches his brother run all over like a madman and i know he is itching to be able to play with him. i love to watch levi watch tucker. :)
he is pretty good in the bath. when i start washing his hair, he gets ticked.
he is sleeping basically 'all night'. from 10ish to after 5ish in the morning. and with that ... JINX ME.
it was a hot august day (much like today but with less humidity). my husband was melting in a tux and i was melting in a heavy, yet beautiful, white dress. it was our wedding day. aaaah, the memories. now, seven years later ... so much has changed, yet so much has stayed the same. isn't it funny how that is so true?
i am still in love with that man i married SEVEN years ago.
actually, i am still in love with that boy i started dating my sophomore year in HIGH SCHOOL (13 years ago)! even though we might not have gotten away to celebrate alone this evening (thankyouverymuchchildren), i still have plenty of memories to look back on and smile about ... and there will be many more made in the future.